"You have two choices...ride to the bottom or get up and start climbing again." Mark Jorgenson "Life is a series of relapses and recoveries." George Ade "Without the Redeemer, the inherent hope and joy evaporate, and repentance becomes simply miserable behavior modification." Dale G. Renlund Before I left Desert Solace in March of 2017 Marilyn and I met with my therapist Ryan, who was the clinical director there at the time, during our last family weekend. Among other things, we talked about the "aftercare" program Ryan and I had created. This plan was a list of the many things I had agreed to do to keep me sober and keep Marilyn safe. Well, keep me safe too. Things such as exercise daily, eating breakfast (something I rarely had done before), living within the boundaries we agreed to (for example, no phone in the bathroom), and doing my "dailies"...a daily routine of morning study, reading, meditatio